Wednesday, September 19, 2012

One of THOSE Weeks

It's been one of those weeks so far. Nothing is going according to plan. I am down with a cold, the kids are too, and now Steven feels cruddy. I am tired and cranky and just want to curl up in a ball and whine.

With the best of intentions.... this blog is not a priority for me right now. *sigh*

I have so much to do to get myself to where I want to be. And that first step is a doozy...

Stay tuned.....

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Stuff and Things

Steven started a new job at the local University about a month ago. He really is not happy there. And then he got a job offer from a restaurant making the same $$ with more hours. So I think he will be changing jobs again soon. *sigh* Stress makes my world go 'round.

Jenna and Nate (J's BF) seem to be getting along well and Nate has interviews scheduled for this week. He will, hopefully, have a job soon. And then they can start looking for their own place sometime after Christmas probably. It will be weird having Jenna not in the house... but good to see her starting her life as a grown up! She is a sophomore this year and school seems to be going well too. But you know how it is once the kids start growing up... parents don't always know what is going on with them any more! Just keeping my fingers crossed.

Both boys are happy in school and glad to be there. They like the routine. And I like the break. I was ready for one.

I am still grieving for Mom. And the anniversary of Dad's death is this month. So I am struggling a bit. Days go by with me not even thinking about it. And then something happens and I get smacked upside the head again. My birthday was the 28th of August and it was.... difficult. I will be very happy when this year is over and done with. Maybe 2013 will be a better, easier year for me.

I am looking forward to moving back to Florida next Summer. I have been wanting to move back for years. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I need to be connected again.

The next ten months or so will consist of me trying to purge and consolidate all of the crap in our house. Moving is never any fun, but moving across states is majorly no fun. I need this move to go smoothly. So, I am in the process right now of trying to catalogue all of our thousands of movies. Then we will put them in soft sided CD cases, the ones that hold about 500, ya' know? And get rid of the individual hard cases. Much easier, and less cumbersome, to move. After that it is time to hit the library. Go through the books, separate Jenna's and Nate's out. Get rid of texts and computer reference books that are too old to be worthwhile. Get rid of books that I will never read again. And then try to catalogue the books.  So. Much. Fun.

Anyone want to come help????

I am addicted to Pinterest and if anyone needs an invite let me know. I am planning to start doing crafts/ sewing again soon and will attempt to show off my work when completed. Pinterest has inspired me!

I have more to share... plans for losing weight, plans for diet and health changes, plans for the kids.... but i am going to try to get back to blogging regularly. So you can come back again tomorrow to read more. LOL

Saturday, September 8, 2012

And still....

I Grieve
Peter Gabriel

It was only one hour ago 
It was all so different then 
There's nothing yet has really sunk in 
Looks like it always did 
This flesh and bone 
It's just the way that you would tied in 
Now there's no-one home 

I grieve for you 
You leave me 
'so hard to move on 
Still loving what's gone 
They say life carries on 
Carries on and on and on and on 

The news that truly shocks is the empty empty page 
While the final rattle rocks it's empty empty cage 
And i can't handle this 

I grieve for you 
You leave me 
Let it out and move on 
Missing what's gone 
They say life carries on 
They say life carries on and on and on 

Life carries on 
In the people i meet 
In everyone that's out on the street 
In all the dogs and cats 
In the flies and rats 
In the rot and the rust 
In the ashes and the dust 
Life carries on and on and on and on 
Life carries on and on and on 

It's just the car that we ride in 
A home we reside in 
The face that we hide in 
The way we are tied in 
And life carries on and on and on and on 
Life carries on and on and on 

Did I dream this belief? 
Or did i believe this dream? 
Now i can find relief 
I grieve